Okay literally this has been the greatest learning week OF MY LIFE it's so crazy the how much the Lord loves us. Okay so first last week we got to clean the Provo temple which was so cool. The sisters got to take apart the chandeliers in the sealing rooms and clean them and put them back together again. Even though we didn't get to do a session it was still so awesome and peacefully being in the temple and I loved it. Except for this one time that one of the workers got super pissed and it was way awkward all the missionaries were like we're in the temple.....anyway we also got to go in the bridesroom and it is SO PRETTY. probs won't be there for a while...and i def won't be in the provo one...hahaha okay i love you all so much. Kell your package made my week seriously people are so annoyed with me because every five seconds I'm like HEY DO YOU WANT TO SEE SOME PICTURES OF THE CUTEST PEOPLE IN THE WORLD??? ugh i miss you and your kids so much i just wish i could squeeze and hug and kiss them to death!!! i am OBSESSED with that egg chapstick and how did you receive inspiration that i needed mascara??? I love you so much!! Okay more about the ridiculously cool week I had.
So Saturday afternoon was one of the best lessons that we taught to our investigator. She was new so we were teaching the first lesson and she mentioned that her sister had gotten really sick and i couldn't understand everything because it was in Korean but basically I got the idea that she didn't know why she was sick and something about faith and I felt like I should share ether 12:6 with her and talk about how sometimes things happen and we don't understand why, but this life is a trial of faith and we must first exercise faith before anything happens. and sometimes even when we exercise faith we don't see the blessings right away and we might not even see them until after we die, but they WILL come because Heavenly Father promises us that. She was crying and the Spirit was really strong and it was just a great experience. Then that night holy bacoocups cow I had the greatest experience. So our teacher did this activity with us where we went outside and kind of went to our own places and just spent a couple minutes of our time praying to the Lord and it was kind of like our own sacred grove experience. He told us to ask the Lord a question and then open our scriptures and read and ponder. It was one of the most powerful things I have experienced. THE LORD ANSWERS PRAYERS EVERYONE IN CASE YOU DIDN'T KNOW THAT. So I told you last week that we wrote our vision and I remember that mom and dad both said that they knew that great gifts were being prepared for me in Korea. And I knew that, but I just wasn't sure how or even if I would be able to be the missionary that the Lord wants me to me. I pleaded to know if it was Heavenly Father's will that he reveal to me some of the gifts that I would be blessed with and how I would be the missionary that He wanted me to be and IF i could be the missionary He wanted me to be. After my prayer my scriptures opened to Moroni 10 now literally my favorite chapter in the Book of Mormon and it was my answer. The chapter talked all about the gifts of the spirit that we could receive if we had the faith necessary. Seriously everything I have learned at the MTC has been centered around faith but more on that later. Anyway I knew through the Spirit that I would be able to become the missionary that Heavenly Father wanted me to be. And that I would be able to develop all the gifts listed in the chapter if I had faith and worked diligently. The gift that stuck out to me was the one that talks about beholding ministering of angels. The thing that I'm most scared about if feeling alone. Being in Korea with people who don't speak my language getting a companion that is hard for me to love and feeling completely alone. But I know that I will never be alone. Because as I am doing my work Courtney WILL be walking right there beside me holding my hand. And there will be other angels that will bear my up when I am feeling like falling down. I will be able to fulfill my vision, but only through faith on the Lord. Sometimes I wish that I could just see Courtney (I know seeking for a sign is sinning), but I knew that I didn't have to see her and I do not have to see Christ to know that they are near and that their spirits are with me. This life is a trial of our faith. So we must exercise it. The covenants and promises that we have made with the Lord WILL be fulfilled IF we have the necessary faith.
Next lesson: Becoming a missionary by elder bednar is a great talk and lead me to study about conversion. Conversion is CONTINUED faith. We will never be completely converted, but we must strive to be more converted each day. In the BD it says that conversion comes after tribulation and trial. Becoming is a gradual thing. Each day we define ourselves better and clearer. Each day we choose Christ. Each day we are converted unto this gospel a little more. Or should be at least. Ask yourself at the end of the day. How did I come unto Christ today? How am I more converted today than I was yesterday?
Next lesson: Monday our lesson with our investigator was HORRIBLE. I asked her how she felt when we taught and she said that she felt guilty and she doesn't know why. what missionary wants to hear that??? It was very spiritually confusing and I just left the lesson like what just happened?? It was really discouraging and I was trying not to get down about it, but it kept nagging me. So I studied about how I would be able to answer that question. What are you supposed to tell someone who feels guilty and doesn't know why? So I studied about recognizing the Spirit and I was led to read Nephi's lament in 2 Nephi 4. Nephi talks about how he has seen all this goodness from God, but still his heart is troubled, still he feels anger, still he feels sorrow, still he yields to temptation, and why? Why is it that even when we know the greatness of God and recognize all the blessings that he has given us do we still sorrow or feel guilt? And then he says Awake my soul and rejoice! And again I was taught that everything comes down to faith. Sometimes it is our choice so sorrow or to choose happiness. Nephi commands his soul to Awake and rejoice in the goodness of god. Sometimes we must choose to rejoice, we must choose to trust and hope. There's nothing more that the Lord can do for us because we still have our agency.
Okay then on Tuesday for OUR LAST DEVOTIONAL RICHARD G. SCOTT CAME TO SPEAK TO US YES BE JEALOUS DAD. IT WAS AWESOME. aaaaand guess what he talked about? FAITH!! and prayer. The coolest thing was that he gave his apostolic blessing TWICE upon those that were learning a language that as we have FAITH we will be able to learn the language. That we will be able to receive the guidance that the Lord wants us to have and that through faith our relationship with our companions will be strengthened. It was such an amazing experience.
Okay last lesson: I was reading in the scriptures marking scripture masteries in my new cute little scriptures and I read Matthew 25 I think that says basically what you do those around you you do for the Lord. And I had always taken that to mean when we serve others we serve the Lord. But when I read it I thought. What about all the hurtful things that I do? All the little jabs at people that I make. The people I ignore or are unkind to. When I act that way towards them it is as if I am doing it to the Lord. Holy cow I was like noooo Heavenly Father why did you teach me this lesson now I'm accountable for it!! -___- but really it makes you more conscious of your actions.
I love you all and AM SO EXCITED TO CALL YOU!!! AHHHHH
love you to death.
uhm what funny stuff happens. i stuff my face every night. i love the elders in my district they are like brothers. so hilarious. my companion bashed her head into this rail thing the other day at gym that was pretty funny. i am absolutely horrible at basketball. love you love you love you I'M SO EXCITED TO GO TO KOREA AHHHH!!!!